Chastity and lust: a guide on lust for the scrupulous

(Chastity South Africa)

Article by Marc Aupiais

What is lust: is loving beauty, breathing it in, holding the breath, and loving it? Surely, no: this is not the pursuit of sexual pleasure outside of the correct context and disposition. it is not the pursuit of sexual pleasure, but of beauty. Is love of the human form such: but this is not the case: Michael Angelo's art: Catholic art proves this. To draw in strength from a woman one loves: this is not lust, and to mildly admire the human form, is also not lust.

To sculpt the human form, is not lust either: but to cause another to sin by one's sculpting, is sin.

Should one marry, intending to use contraception, one very likely does not marry. To have sex with one's wife: using such methods: this is lust: yet not so with merely admiring beauty: least one admires it, as to endorse desires to take it as a substance for one's sexual pleasure, or sexually achieved purposes: apart from the context in which this is lawful within Catholic morality.

The use of the sexually purposed organs, so classified from their design, or the stimulation of sexual pleasure in such manner; apart from the correct context, is mortal sin: including certain actings taken upon by men: who chose to simulate something apart from the marital act. This is to do so with a false, non-existent woman: and while born of loneliness: is in fact selfish, and an insult against the wife, or future wife, or possible wife. To spill a certain substance, from one's self, into, or onto something other than the place for it: is sinful. In fact, to purposely do so: is an act of intrinsic evil": in catholic morality.

Pornography: this is lust, as it involves fantasies and thoughts, or the endorsement of some desires which are unlawful: or exposes the sexual act, apart from its proper place: which is supposed to be the context of in privacy, within marriage, with unitive, and pro-creative properties, or else, pornography causes a view of women, sexuality, men, or the act itself; which is banal: and not the fullness of such. It is mortal sin to use or view this: even if not out of lust: as it is promoting a culture of lust, and supporting the degradation of human dignity. If not lust, it is part of the mortal matter of the sin of wrath... such against those within it, and against many additionally: it is evil.

To view another as purely a means of sexual pleasure; also is lust.

When we call prostitutes immoral, it is either because they do something unsafe, that we flee them, or that they trade sexuality for advancement, or maintenance. Trading sex for love, or for a home, or for any sort of pleasure. Prostitutes, and others: do a trade. This is why marital love must be lifelong and unconditional, not some trade: based on advancement or pleasure: otherwise, what we see as wrong as prostitution, manifests in another ways in us. Love in this form may be pleasurable, and one can love pleasure, but not so as to view the partner as simply a means to such, and not a person and, if in proportion, where maintaining, and promoting, expressing unity, and openness to childbirth, are not kept from this exchange: but to trade sexual pleasure: is a wrong reason to do so. We know it: it is why prostitution is despised...

Love in such form, as to be moral must be "selfless": and open to childbirth: this is what evolution made love for, and what God caused marriage for: selfless love, union: everlasting love: an emblem of the relations of Love Himself: of the relationship between Father and Son, which eternally spawns the Holy Spirit, begotten, but never made: having never not existed.

Their relations are not sexual, rather: it is selfless love, it is care for one another: between two persons, which are love: which spawns the third; eternally: which also is love: all as one God, three persons.

Further, love: for a child, is not only natural, it is moral: so far, as the love itself is selfless: and it can only be, if the ideals, and concerns of the two: are concerns of one body: if both are selfless: as can only occur in in this act, when in marriage: and this is the dual: reciprocal selflessness: into which children must be born: loved: cared for. That said, a lack of this is not a reason to murder the child: just as a lack of our desires is no reason to kill ourselves: a person is a person, no matter how small, and also: even when they are vulnerable to death: which makes our body a corpse, to be respected, but oft considered: a "person" no more. Love, Christian love: can only refer to selflessness. It is unconditional: and this is the place for married love.

To reduce a living, breathing, moving human form to the body, and what pleasure it can give, this is evil: it is illogical, and it is wrong, and to view a person as an object of therapeutic, or pleasure endorsing material, and in this exclude them as a person: this also is a form of lust. Yes, one may purely admire their physical beauty, yet to imagine them or long for them to do certain things outside of marriage, to to long to use their form for this: or against their will, this is mortal sin. To imagine them naked: is it not wrath: is it not violating their God given right to privacy, and protection from uncaring eyes?

So, lust, is the pursuit of sexual pleasure, apart from the selfless, eternal unity of Marriage. It is also, when this pleasure of sexual organs is pursued by those who close themselves off from childbirth. Pursuing sexual pleasure apart from the possibility of such, in a relationship, and apart from unity: this is evil: if not seemingly always the matter of mortal sin.

Should one long for marriage in the mind, one must remember not to long for sexual pleasure: but for a relationship, in which sexual pleasure is just a small part, and in which this pleasure is nothing but a reward from God: for pursuing to manifest him properly, and for pursuing unity, and family, with this act: but not sexual pleasure for sexual pleasure's sake: and that those who do so outside of such, misrepresent God as not selfless, and not life, nor open to life: they say that God does not love God: for God himself; we know eternally maintains God: via his eternal love.

One should realize that God judges both what is, and what would be. This is how those lucky: saved in Baptism of Desire (I am speaking of Lumen Gentium XVI: Vatican II's Salvation outside the visible boundary of the Sacramental Holy Roman Catholic Church): are saved: in that given the opportunity, they would seek God properly. This is also why some others are not considered saved: and why the Gospel is so important. This is also how one, repentant of their sin, on the way to confession, dying in the car: should likely also see heaven: for they would confess. This is also perhaps why: he who fantasized about certain things with a woman not his own: outside of the context of selfless married love: this man: God judges: would do as he desires should the obstacles be removed. This is also why lust is the matter of mortal Sin: it is as mortal a sin as adultery; though easier to commit: and excludes perhaps the wrath of adultery, and other sins contained in that treasury; making it possibly less grave, but still the matter of mortal sin.

Now, should a couple not be utterly selfless, this does not make their relations evil: marriage is the only way to know for sure, and if both parties understand it, have no impediment to it, and plan to lifelong enter the child rearing, unifying relation of marriage, understanding its indissolvable, eternal, and contextual nature, and able to fulfill it: the bond is created.

Still, the act itself must be pure, the spilling of seed outside its place, such as when it is not placed in a certain area of the body, of a legitimate partner, or degrading practices, or cruelty, and hatred manifest in it: should be kept away: and the act itself must be freely done: and must be open to life. Also: one should focus on both in such a thing: unity, and openness to family, and a bond for as long as both do live, and on God, also: who is Love: the nature we mimic in such. It is evil even here to pursue pleasure itself, without unity, without caring for the other, and respecting their freedom, and dignity in such.

So, lust is both the "plan", the conscious desire, the willingness: manifest in certain thoughts and endorsement of certain desires: to commit acts of lust; but also: is everything higher on such scale in this. To endorse desires for the sin of lust, is the sin of lust, this is the nature of this sin.

Kissing, outside of marriage for the sake of sensual pleasure: this is sinful: even as kissing as a sign of love, friendship, or fidelity is not: but if one kisses for physical sexual pleasure, and the other for love: is not the other allowing his fellow to sin. One must be careful with kissing: that it not be lustful, as with touching: these when outside of marriage: cannot be for pleasure, even when as signs of affection; even when pleasure is gained from such.

Actions involving certain organs: however: can only be done when the requirements for unity, and for openness to childbirth: and in marriage, and these actions can only be the actions for which God designed these organs: and not unnatural simulation of certain conditions the body is programmed to respond to. There: is not exception to some acts being sinful. Masturbation, is always evil, intrinsically evil.

The person who is raped, against their will: however, does not seem to sin, least their sin is some other action: of their own: such as willfully entering into relations with the attacker, beyond what saves the life, and "reputation" (Modern Catholic Dictionary).

Yet, many a person is sainted for dying while fighting the aggressor off: such a fight to survive is not evil, nor the fight for one's dignity, in which the life is lost in pursuit of chastity: but direct suicide to avoid rape: is sinful: in fact, in ancient Israel: the Woman had to shout for help when raped, by their law.

One; like when facing a dangerous animal, or other such things: should do what they can to protect dignity (chastity) and life. One cannot be held accountable for evil done to them: only for evil which they are responsible for. What one does out of reasonable fear for their life, often is not what they would otherwise do. Saint Philomena, was sainted: for refusing to marry the Roman emperor, and dying a horrid death, as with another: yet being a victim of violence is not one's fault. But, I am not an expert on morality in this section. The resistance required: that one be guilty of nothing when raped: is to resist internally with the will, and also: to with one's physical and moral ability as long as the life and "reputation" is not endangered to a certain, horrid extent(Modern Catholic Dictionary). Reputation, surely is not something of light matters, it is not the mere threat of the spreading of a rumor or such: but a protection on dignity; surely: in either case: I cannot explain what is meant here authoritatively: but something more vital: rape always refers to manipulation via force, or endangerment to something one values: whether life, or reputation, and endangerment into such. Rape, is not the choice of the person who is the victim, and their participation, is under extreme duress, for such is the nature of rape. Even when the victim is guilty of lust, the rapist is always guilty of rape; whether by treachery, or by force, or by manipulation, or some other means of forcing a woman to act against the will in this.

In any matter, where one is unsure: of their guilt: remember; the confessional is open: find a trustworthy, godly priest, who seems good: and anonymously confess sins when needed (Catholics, otherwise, join the church via the normal way, and confess when your first confession arrives, or be baptized if you have not been baptized in the name of the Trinity: through the church structures, unless the life is threatened: and do so always in the three Names: Father, Son and Holy Spirit). I confess regularly, at least, I have in the past: whenever one is worried, a regular period of confession: also gives more hope of salvation, if one dies before one is able to attend, as one would have attended.

Likewise: those who have certain dreams; do not sins by these, as they are asleep: yet, if they choose to bring these dreams on by fantasies being endorsed, it seems they sin. Also, dreams can be a sign of things which are wrong in the life. All sins can be forgiven: if one seeks this forgiveness in the right manner: from the One Holy Church, and from God: with repentance.

Also, when one has just awoken, or is in such state, guilt may be decreased, if they then sin, even completely: as the sleeping mind is not accountable to reason: and one cannot control such adequately: and one must willingly choose to sin, to take an unreasonable cause of action, which is an offensive action to God, to sin, and must know that they are not doing right: to be fully accountable.

As to doubt of how accountable: in most matters, regular confession can help erase fear on this.


"I may have sinned this often, but I am unsure": it is simple and easy, and can help one understand when they have sinned. Job, he offered sacrifices, even when he was unsure of sin. Once a week, or month, can be adequate, and for those who sin less: once a year: but when in mortal sin: this is inadvisable, and the quicker period is advisable. Also: using the 7 deadly sins as a format on which to accuse one's self; can simplify and quicken confession. Remember, it is sinful to accuse one's self of sins you have not done: that is why I advise: could be: but unsure: when you are not sure! Of course, sins like murder, or abortion, or such: should be confessed directly, as these can well: require a special absolution, due to the nature of the offense, and more (certainly currently, in the legal framework of today: in the case of abortion): to canon law. With a sin like abortion, or willful heresy: it is important to mention it as what it is: so as to make sure the priest has the authority given, and so that he can give a special absolution for these, as there can well be a need to do so.

How to view our tempting, how to comprehend our suffering, we who cry from all ends of the earth in anguish, and utterance of hoping suffering, and ut

(Journey in a Broken World)

Article by Marc Aupiais

I am drunk it seems, drunk not with alcohol, but with an insanity not my own. I know my actions are illogical, but it seems as I am powerless against them- that I shall fall, and I do.

Darkness merged with darkness, time stood still, around me something uncomfortable fills my sides, a black oil enters me, and surrounds me. I am drowning, as my heart bleeds, and turns to stone, heavy stone, like a constant pain.

Terror overcomes me, fear mixed in a sunset cocktail of ancient horror and terror. The trap surrounds me, as I shiver, and weep inside, and scream inside. Death itself enters me, and it seems- as though by my actions themselves- I pray to the devil- for his will to be done in the world. To the world my sin is small, non-existent, non-issues, healthy, sane, good- whatever it is. To me, I know I have failed, as clouds cover the heavens, and the sun becomes the color of black marble, and the yellow, orange, and green skies turn into a cocktail of terror.

Is this not what sin does to us, does it not create a deep gash in our chests, where our heart is, or affect our stomach, like a sickness, or like a dead beating heart in our throat like a rotten apple?

I do not exaggerate, by explaining the spiritual process of sin, but treat it as it is, as real as the physical, as solid, as rock solid as reality as the solid is.

And so, from all the earth we weep, and cry, our sackcloth a much sought out commodity, and yet is there any to comfort the sinner, or any who comfort all who have sinned, and broken their life, their soul- so that lava-like fiery scars cover their heart like veins? Indeed, to be sane, and in the state of mortal sin is a new horror for many a Catholic, to realize where they are and the horror of what they have done...

Immediately you may promise, and then without thought repeat your actions, the strongest oaths worth nothing to influence you.

Many now realize the power of the sacrament, they attend confession, and saturate the entire roster, with their presence, they go to church every Sunday and feast day, as God desired, and they live on the sacrament in their spirit. Both are good, and yet, when will the onslaught end. The stronger we get, the stronger the temptation. Our prayers only give us temporary safety, even hours worth of these, and our horrors become aeviternal scars. In fact, we will never be permitted to do away with sacrament, so long as we still live in the trials of the temporary plain, we cannot do without church on days of obligation, or confession at least once a year, but we can indeed even dare to say- conquer sin

Without the sacrament we are no-where in conquering sin, we must conquer it from within or not at all.

To stop sinning, we must become sane- and that is a horror. We start with the weeping within when our form commits a regular habit of sin, or acts like a mindless mythical creature. We start as we feel the horror of a mother who has lost her favorite child to a merciless, ruthless, unblinking, non-sleeping enemy. Darkness, like a mist thicker than blood- it covers us in our sin, and our energy in drained, our hope dying.

And so- we must determine to stop sinning immediately, not the day before our next confession, but today- and we must tell the priest everything needed inside the confessional. We must give him what we need in order to be healed by this spiritual warrior doctor, this... priest.

We must also vow to try never to sin again, and avoid, occasions of sin- if they be people, we may give them opportunity to change- but firstly value our own soul- saving another is never guaranteed. We then must use truth to set us free, even as we already have started via confession, on this long, winding dark path in the dusk of life- the dark just behind, the day ahead- walking in dusk- we race to find the ever-moving light. Indeed, the light is static, yet we must run to catch up, and will never reach it unless it invites us to join it. I know this- I have chased it countless times, and never reached it. I was spiritually exhausted, and losing water, yet my journey after the light was stunted, and I was barely alive by the time it reached me, specters of the night behind me, chasing me.

In fact, the night I sensed before my complete reversion- this was the lies and dangers of the world, of what in my dreams took the form of a deadly, ever-moving snake, which I aptly named kosmos (world). It seemed, I was only attempting to control the world, to fight it, and grapple, catch, or grab its neck to stop it biting me, but my accomplice in my dreams never gave up, and I never conquered it for good. This is how the world often acts, is it not- we try to control our lives, so that we are not hurt, in our small amounts- we compete to protect our forms, and fight like insane depraved wild creatures- to save our lives every time. Indeed, we should be so zealous for our lives, but what is our life, but our soul. That is the literal meaning of soul- breath is it not?

Kosmos still haunts me when I sin, his strength and size grow with my sins, and reduce to nothing with my consistent righteousness. He scared me allot, this phantom of dreams, often I would wake up sweating, even screaming. The reality of this, which is only a dream character- is so exemplified in a real snake I once found in my house, while walking bare-foot up my stairs, and over the small, angry, pitiable creature.

Our sin is like an external being, if we play with it, it only bites us and fills our veins with venom- which kills us. We must realize more than cautiously, more than boldly, in a complete infusion of belief- any desire to sin is a deception.

We must then look deep- to see what our actual need and want is- is it desire for freedom, to finally reveal the truth, to be good, to be successful, to be loved, or to love, to be accepted, to feel safe, or be comforted, or in comfort, or to comfort others, or be doing something of much purpose in living our gold dusted existence- in the darkness of our world? Whatever it is, we must find the natural desire, and decide to strengthen it, so as to chance away kosmos, our sin inducing snake. And when we fall- we must use the sacrament, no vow, no prayer, no hope can save us apart from the sacrament or its ghostly counterpart- whereby we would seek it if we knew of it, yet seek and obey truth as be it we can- real truth, not "defined" truth.

We must realize- Christ descended to our level, and went through temptation. How are we to gain our merit certificate, our crown, if we do not overcome an enemy. We are to see any temptation as an opportunity to prove ourselves, to grow our self, by conquering our sin- through self control, choice, and then finding our actual desire, likely with some aid of prayer- and kicking out the evil one by manifesting this desire, either at its rawest form, or else in another manifestation- which is healthy, and different. What is good- that is in the power and strength of God, so far as it is so, and preserves itself through goodness!

Journey in a Borken world- the intriguing embarrassed redness, the conscience of the masses

(Journey in a Broken world)

Article by Marc Aupiais

Embarrassment is fear at its core, whether prompted by love or desire for success. It is the fear that we wont get what we desire. I have felt this before, mostly involving possible future feminine sides (girls I like or have liked), and sometimes I enjoyed embarrassment, and embarrassing myself quite publicly, and morally we must also may add, for conscience sake.

When watching movies, or television, I still wish I could lift the blanket or pillow above my head in an embarrassing scene, or when someone does something wrong or stupid, or naive. I even sometimes leave the room, I die of embarrassment for a character, or someone I do not know, and often have to check the source of my feelings, whether anger, or love, and to realize they are not mine, but another's, reflected in invisible empathy- so that I also feel this.

Embarrassment, is a function of survival, when one goes red, and friends point it out, one knows one has either done something one considers risky socially or something that is a societal "sin" of sorts. We do not get embarrassed when we are secure in our situation, rather- it is the environment of the overly bold, or those who feel stupid as though doing wrong. When no one is around, and it is not so in telling the priest- when I sin, I feel such embarrassment. I know that sin never does good- but hurts myself and others, even that which only lives within the mind of a man, or in secret. Our secrets are broadcast in the spiritual, and when in mortal sin, and loving it- a certain type of person would radiate towards me, when secretly in sin, another, when ashamed of sin, another, and when saintly, if I say so myself- another still.

People know our sins, I often read them in faces- or body language. When another has conscience working, we know they are doing wrong- because their body language, and that feel, that emotive power says so. Without conscience, it takes listening to intuitive truth or reality, to realize another is wrong.

The bible says we should be ashamed of our sins, and shame is embarrassment, is it not. In fact, and I have it verified in England and Canada- it is a South African thing- to say shame to someone who is embarrassed, out of empathy. Shame and embarrassment go hand in hand. Whether through physical evil- that which risks our physical form, or moral evil- that which destroys our spiritual source of life, our soul. Shame indeed- is fear of rejection, which is dangerous to our evolutionary form.

Moral evil in the end, destroys the physical, and so we feel shame for our sins.

In the mists of time, we feel unsafe, we feel safe, when we see things all around, we love clearness, but are fascinated by mystery. It is the joy of facing fears that makes walking into the mists of time and space so fascinating. It is doing what is mentally healthy that we enjoy so much. The sin of vanity, this is what it is- it is the seeking of embarrassment, of what should be the emotion of conquering fear, and yet- embarrassment is a healthy reminder- of what our mind says is risky. Sometimes it is healthy to overcome, but never when it is against God.

Ultimately, what embarrasses us is not to be ignored, but taken into account- it tells us of how we view our world and surrounds. Having taken our emotion's advice- we then must take our intuition's advice, and listening carefully to intuition, while telling it what we have discovered- which delicately tells us if we should obey or disobey the warning of our fear of shame.

Chastity South Africa- The small freedom I guarentee you, that which we die for, and give our life to

(Chastity South Africa)

Article by Marc Aupiais

I am walking in the thick snow, by the edge of movement. I look up, seeing a small red bird, and am wondering at the soul of it. Perhaps I tossed and turned, I do not know, all I remember is what I describe, and perhaps more- but not the context. The bird made small noises and I truly wondered- are you aeviternal? I did not know what aeviternal meant, but still I wondered- at the concept I did not comprehend as yet... nor did I use the blessed word aeviternal for it, something more like fully alive!

I looked to the side, the snow was moving, there was an avalanche of sorts, I guess. I walked towards it, I was on the top of the mountain now, and I took something sparkling, something shining, like a fire perhaps from the cold snow. It was golden in form, though not too cold or dead, I think, it was a secret.

I would have awoken and written a poem in my diary about the experience, or perhaps I was awake, and the idea simply entered my mind, a scary idea- of being there on that mountain- simply surrounded in chaos, in death, and diving deep into it to save something important, and leaving once I had.

The golden piece was a woman's soul, that was the meaning, and I was sent there- to the danger to save her, or so I had thought when contemplating the odd poetic thought.

We have a task in our world, and when we achieve it, or fail- we are to turn into dust and fly upon the wind until we come to face the truth,with pain or joy, or any sort of reacting.

We save our fellows physically, but also with more than this. True freedom is freedom to be our deepest being, to become what we truly are. What we truly are is never evil- that is what we think we are, and what we think we are desires to imprison who we are. We think to quickly that we hate, or desire evil on others, or to do wrong. Our evil shadow does, and we sin by treating this as ours- and that is why we confess our sins, but every sin is self delusion, every sin is a lie, and malicious lies even the smallest destroy all things.

So, Jesus came into our world to undo the Devil's work, not God's law, not morality, not the power of the conscience of the soul- no- he came not to change the requirements of salvation- but to save us from his enemy- to slavery to thoughts, and desires- we only think falsely as our own.

When I truly gained self control- it was by seeing sin as foreign to my self.

I also need the sacrament, and to realize the choice is mine- and the power so strongly desiring evil- it is not the devil- but me allowing my desires to misfire, and believing something is my desire when it is not. This is where faith saves us- where realization of true, whole reality- and this is what faith is- saves.

We are to calm our souls- and undress our pride to around our knees. We are to lower our souls, and step back from our body, and feel calmness within- we are to notice our emotions, but detach from them, and hear them as voices- as guides, advisors, and competitors, and with each, call it aside like a pet sparrow. We must hold it on our hand and speak to it, and ask who it is, and who its parents are- until we realize our true desire. When one realizes the true desire, beyond the good or evil form- one can choose how to manifest it, and we may only sanely choose what is good- least we fool ourselves. We must focus on the source of our desire. It is something in reality- something we want or do not want, some warning, or some chilling fearful realization. Emotions are like intuition, they tell us about ourselves, and how we read what is.

Jesus came to cause us life forever- and life to the fullness- not in events- but in who we stand to be and become- not in appearances, but in our depths, and aching organs. By prayer, belief, trust, obedience, and by philosophy (the literal meaning of this), the love of truth- we shall find right.

Philosophy is the seeking of the source of things, so that we can admit their source. Theology and philosophy are not one, but in the virtue of self control- seeing what our source emotion is, our real situation- that below the misfiring- we can concentrate on it, and strengthen it- breaking the icy stranglehold of the chains of slavery to sin- simply by inflating the righteous desire we truly feel- which evil has stolen, hijacked and twisted.

Like a beast loosed on the town, with something tied to it to cause it panic- evil loves to look at our weaknesses, the desires we keep under- the righteous ones below the evil the manifest- and to set these into a slight spinning of tissue- so that we fall vastly out of control- like a wild black horse rampaging through a small desert town.

Such a beast desires comfort, but to it- it thinks it desires to throw off the thing holding it, or else- that it hates those it sees, as it causes damage, like in madness.

Truly, to conquer the sin beneath, at the source- and to throw the soul into balance, by admitting our true desires, and believing them- we in fact calmly stop rampaging, and can logically remove what captivates us. Like the horse we need help, not from people who would use us to slave for their tasks, but from one who values our freedom, but more than that our sanity, without which freedom is worthless, and without morals, we are not in perfect sanity.

Our source of freedom, is like a fence the horse goes to in the end, where a young boy quietly frees his and sends him off. Our freedom is in seeking the true, deepest source of our desires, and then also in the salvation wrought by the sacrament, and by the church which helps solidify our efforts, and truly puts our soul (our current aeviternal form, which is like the battery, and animator of our every essence of being, flesh, blood, and living part) right, even as we are more than encouraged to fix our body, which includes our mind.

We are more than conquerers, when fighting evil with truth, and goodwill, we are soldiers, centurions, with a clear avatar, and emblem on our shields and on our souls- the silver and gold emblem of sanity, upon the platinum shield of truth, and morality.

The perfection of sanity and morality are one and the same, for to be truly moral is to be truly sane, and sanity is the mind's state which does what our mother church defines as moral, in tradition and magisterium. Let us fight our sin, by converting our desires into what they truly are, and ourselves also- and by prayer, power, love, empathy- and the realization infinite- that unwarranted mercy to oppressors, is unjust persecution of the oppressed.

The true emotions, and feelings- to understand is to be able to control

(Chastity South Africa)

Article by Marc Aupiais

When we are brought under the waves of sin, and feel them eat away at the breach like cold, deathly acid- we truly must know that our control of our self, and self awareness, and comprehension are intimately connected, like two souls destined to be one, yet living chastely within prayer and God.

Now the mind is not the soul, we know already that the soul is our invisible part closest to our Loving source- Life, whose being, perfection and essence, we call God.

The mind is the body- moulded by her fabric- edited by evolution, or whatever manner God made us in. Original sin does not make our deepest nature evil- rather- it causes us to weaken.

When we are fighting for breath while drowning in the oceans of temptation, and feeling a tide, not our own pulling us back out to sea- so strongly that it feels as though it were our own desire- we know intuitively if at all- that we must fight the tide least we are carried out to sea- and the subtle connection between God and soul is broken as we can no longer resonate his substance with our own.

Our war is between Reality and illusion, and so the more real we are- so also the more Godly, but when we follow desires which truly are not natural, when we endorse these illusions as though they were real and ours- we commit the sin they are named after, and become less real. We possibly only become less resonating- as with venial (Latin Venia- Forgiveness) sin. When we sin mortally- the gash is deep, and causes the connection to for all intensive purposes break.

Now- when we are tempted by this ocean of sin- let us firstly define what we truly want- what natural desires are combining, and being twisted by illusion and weakness- to appear to be a desire which is not ours.

Whether the desire for happiness- which ultimately all desires are a manifestation of, or that for comfort, or that for desire.

We look at what we truly feel and aim for her purpose- we get angry- sometimes because things are not as we believe they should be, and sometimes because it is an evolutionary desire to defend our self.

We often see people who could or have hurt us as evil- this is because our body sees that which is harmful to it as ugly, or as evil- quite naturally. It is this form of judgement, as with judging based on another's wealth- something we fear for empathy- which is so dangerous.

Now, when we define what we truly feel, and why we feel this- we do not endorse the sinful desire- and never become guilty of what sin ultimately is- treating something as something it is not!

Sometimes habits are sourced in habit- but what is the trigger, is it a wrong perception, or is it because we have lied to our body through treating something as something it is not. Seeking pleasure of a sexual nature tells our body that someone is our spouse. Human beings are designed by God for lifelong marriage.

Now, there is the false argument that what animals do is what is natural for man, but this is wrong- what animals do with temporary souls- is what is beneficial to their physical form, man has an eternal (Aeviternal technically- only God is eternal) soul, and this means his self is greater than that of an animal.

Animals eat of their own kind, rabbits commit infanticide, and hippos also.

Dogs naturally seek many partners, but only when they are on heat- what is most natural for an animal is what is most beneficial to its entirety, but animals are infinitely different from man- their current souls are temporary, like their bodies are, like our bodies are.

Man is soul and body- the soul being the invisible part of the body most like God- and it is by the actions of the body that the soul, which is part of the form is effected. Man must work forward- so as to protect his self- which is body and soul. What is natural for man is that which is of benefit to him!

Now- when faced with sin- it is not sinful to say it is this or that and resist it- and fight it- for indeed- the definitions of sin are definitions of the form illusion takes- and we define it to conquer it in the confessional, but when fighting it- it is always good to show it is not our desire, but rather an illusion that we sin in ever endorsing.

Chastity South Africa- You are your body!

(Chastity South Africa)

Article by Marc Aupiais

Theologically- we are fully body and fully soul. The soul is the life, the body that which is given life by the soul. Before conception we have souls, life much like the animals do- temperal, not eternal- but at conception we are made permanent- aeviternal is the better word. Biblically- the soul is often used to denote the body and soul- the self of a man!

For now- our bodies are temperal- because if they were aeviternal- we would not be able to return to God. The body of a man is the only thing apart from the spiritual which can influence his soul. We cannot be saved or condemned apart from the actings of our own body. At birth- we are weakened by the lack of grace known as original sin- this is why the fear exists of many souls going straight to hell- however- in addition to our physical actions, and physical thoughts- is what we are planning to do, or would do given the chance- and this too has a ghostly effect on our lives, on our souls.

Life is more complex than many think it is- God for instance is pure Life. That means life is more than pure animation. The word animation in fact comes from the Latin word for soul- anima. We say rather- the soul and the life of a being are one thing.

When we speak of the form of one's body- we speak of something which is also utterly connected with the soul. The human person is designed that way- we interact with the world with our bodies- and are as much our body as we are our soul.

When we feel we cannot control the weakness of our body, we are lying to ourselves. Our body is ourself- we are perfectly in control when we sin. It does not make it harder or easier, but so far as we know what we are doing, know it is wrong, and are awake enough to comprehend, and alter our actions- we are responsible for our actions.

When the body has a desire- this desire is entered into with our entire self to some degree. When our desires of evil exist- we know this is purely the twisting of desires once good- but no longer so. Like the Orcs in Tolkien's Lord Of The Rings, who were once elves, and wondrous- evil is not the opposite of good- but the mutation of it- so that it is no longer as it is.

When our body has a desire- when our mind or emotions desire something- we must ask of the source of it- if the source is the same as the desire, and it is good- perhaps we have found the source- otherwise- when a desire is evil- the body does not desire something evil- even as the mind might be disposed by our past, or weakness to believe that it desires evil. It rather- either continues old habits, or believes lies we have told it, or tells us something we misunderstand, or take too heavily.

When we desire to do evil- we must view the good which has been twisted, and maligned into this desire- we must endorse this good, and focus on our breathing, and on the good- and purposely manifest the good desire apart from the evil we have been deluded into thinking is our body's desire, and push the evil desire away- be enlarging the good- and by prayer, sacraments- and the purpose of good.

Desires, and actions are not the same thing. To endorse a desire however is an action, and to fight one also is. To have an evil desire is only sin- if we do not immediately try to combat it when we realize what is happening in some valid extent. Not every desire should be acted on- for instance- the body might desire more food - having already eaten- but this is because we have lied to it, by eating too much in the past, or simply the natural desire to preserve the body's life. All desires should be dealt with in right proportion, some followed, some avoided.

When we next are tempted to sin- we must realize, we are not purely spiritual, we are also physical- otherwise we could not be judged on physical actions we take.