Targeted, powerful- higher prayer... The properly partaken mass!

(Also appeared at : Journey in a Broken World 31 / 08 | August / 2009)

Article by Marc Aupiais

As I stand, my hands in prayer... As I sit, back straightened, palms on knees... As I listen, and as I join... As quiet joy enter, softness gloats.

I recognise church as prayer, and so- when I stand, it is in a prayer I stand, and so my gestures boldly claim. When I take communion, I kneel, I am before a king. Genuflecting, I speak of my Emperor- the Emperor beyond the logical sea.

I do not clap in church- neither for people, nor if people do so when we should be praying by song.

A few hurt feelings are worth the lesson, the gospel I attempt to preach.

Church can be fun if properly done. Fun in a way beyond normal fun. A fun, spiritual felling of waste which enters all and fills the soul deep within all more shallow chasms. A game is not fun if not properly played- how boring is tennis without a net, how impossible if the boundaries are moved...

Church is about prayer first and foremost. The gospel is truth, and the Eucharist unites us with God- but all of these are just some life-giving parts of a high form of prayer.

One does not clap when praying in silence in the bedroom, the door closed. One should not trumpet the fact they are fasting in the streets. Clapping is communication, or a means of artificially creating community.

All those things, designed to spice up the mass- distract. They hide the hidden effect of the spiritual- like a buzzing sound, they move attention from the meaning- the force which plunges the clear of soul into God.

When entering mass, we quiet our souls with the water- and we take up our role. What we receive is the Eucharist, and blessings and the Word, which is read. What we give is to the world, by changing it by focussing on this as prayer, and by the grace given us.

Every Catholic should pray at least about an hour a week- this prayer in body and soul- gesture and word- thought provoked too. By prayer our soul dances joyously with God- by prayer it heals softly. Mass is about prayer- about you praying to God.

The word Worship refers to love, respectful, Godly love- it is why Catholics must not abandon this word in false ecumenism when talking of the saints- the word reveals the truth of the Gospel: that we must Worship one another as God has and does Worship us.

The ultimate form of love is to absolutely adore a person- when we say we only adore God- with utmost adoration- we say that we must think of whom we love most, and willingly love God more while not loving them less as an excuse. By loving others- worshipping them based on more than just our like of the relationship that is, with true Godly worship, by our just treatment of others we adore and worship God.

According to the Holy Scriptures, as seen in one of the Epistles, one of the letters of Saint John the Apostle- "this is love, to obey the commands of God..." Clearly, to love is to be in resonance with God, in sinc with this world we truly live in. The mass transcends this universe we touch, and is a foretaste of heaven. The transcendence is spiritual, and when at mass it is the spiritual we must see and taste.

When at mass I either stand and have my hands up in visible prayer, or else sit as Augustine did as Bishop of Hippo, with my hands respectfully on my knees. Here, I pray by mimicking the saints.

As we say the creed, I put my hand to my heart- it is our anthem- these words, we confess and believe unite us from being apart. As I kneel- it is proper and my hands do not rest on the pew in front- my elbows rest on air as I pray while kneeling and give this up to God.

When I genuflect- my knee touches the ground. Most of communication when in person is body language. I am in the court of the Emperor of my very own being when at church. I must allow others to see this also- least they offend the king.

What a gospel we can spread from the pews, what a truth- by celebrating mass as what it is- a prayer, a high prayer. At mass we are taught the long night of the soul- we must not take shallow joy from triviality, but rejoice for we Pray, for we eat God himself- Jesus: body, blood and soul!

It is the matter of mortal sin to take the Eucharist in mortal sin, and Saint Paul records to the Corinthians in the bible, of why some had died or fallen ill. They had not recognised the body of Christ, and like in the gospel account, where Jesus had chased the crowds from the temple- they had turned God's building into a human thing (eating and drinking normally- to fill their bellies), for the crowds had turned God's temple into a market-place.

Prayer is the power of mass- prayer in thought, perspective adopted, in gesture and in word, in action, and obedience.

Let us not distract from this for the sake of entertaining others. The focus of mass must be on our relations with God, and not triviality, or finding ways to "have fun" despite the Mass, despite God, despite God's asking for our being there to pray!

By prayer and action shall the Universe turn to God. Shall we desecrate one of our most powerful weapons- the mass, by neglecting in whose court we are. The fun we get from games come when we play them in the right structure, the way they are designed to bring fun. Whimsical fun comes and goes, but proper games continue to amuse. The way to have fun in church is to consider it a prayer- while in the presence of God almighty. My greatest joy is respecting God- adoring him. If worship in honour- powerful respectful love, based on their souls- is due the saints, the adoration that God asks of us, is a deep love on our respect- a love that I must yearn in, love which softly permiates our vision, and returns us to closer to where we were ordained to be.

How shall I be saved- if I do not care for the spiritual war of Christ- and all of God- ...a war of Reality against His enemy: illusion. Prayer is a weapon of truth.

Original sin

(Journey in a Broken World)

Article by Marc Aupiais

Doubt is natural: and my natural state when dealing with doubtful things, but not God.

I find that when I doubt God, or such, I move from him. When I doubt what he has said in the past: then I doubt him, or follow other voices claiming to be him, or misinterpret what I see or feel.

They say Pride is the Original sin, but was there not doubt before pride: and you shall know wrong from right? Surely: they doubted God's power, or that what they had was best: so they then thought that as God could not: they could: but then again: is this not pride: the route of all sin: but surely, pride: is a form of doubt?

Now doubt is good: yesterday I showed that: but doubt is a reaction to something which has alterable nature: which is fallible: but we must never doubt the voice of Reality: of God: and so eventually: pride is always about doubt: and in doubt : fear: is that not the route of all sin: fear: but not fear of God's wrath: which saves us from this other fear.

Now, one of my readers objected to Augustine, they said: it sounds exactly like he abandoned his son. Perhaps he did, but here doubt is good: we know Augustine is a saint: so it is better to doubt that he sinned, even when sinful: than to accept any bad thing we hear about him. Adam and eve doubted an infinite being, and accepted the word of a lesser creature. Surely, snakes were made for men, not men for snakes: yet they heard the word of what looked like an animal: over that of Truth itself.

Now, when accusing a person, except sometimes in immediate danger: should we not have evidence of their offense, for there is evidence of any accusation we make: against us whenever it is not true?

Now Adam and Eve: accepted false testimony that God was not doing what was best for them: from a being lesser than them?

How foolish?

Indeed: God is Reality: the mediator of existence: like a background to the universe. Now I am going to use a word which is very special: but when using it: it must be respected, which is which I will not spell it so you can pronounce such, it must be taught, not just observed. God's name is YHWH: if you insert the vowels. I AM Who I AM: reality.

So, they chose to hear an inferior being over the voice of Reality itself: it is crazy, not inevitable: it is doubt of Fact itself.

Now, yeasterday was Christmas: and we give gifts: beause in Christians we acknowledge Jesus, whose birthday we celebrate, and in non-Christians we acknowledge man: who does not see God's gift in Jesus, so we give them also a gift: but really: in both, we mimic God: who gives us the gift of himself.

Now, the most evil men on the planet: mimic God, but not just on Christmas.


You see, God is Reality: Reality has always been, contains all beings in its belly: it is eternal, infinite, powerful, and all these things. Men who want power, they want to be like God, men who want control: again, men who want every sort of evil: mimic God. Sexual intercourse: is a manifestation of the interactions of the Trinity: except now you say: sometimes sex is evil: in fact, in most circumstances it is, is it not?

Sex is evil when it doesn't manifest God properly, and with all the elements. When God came down, he came down as a just little child, and left all the knowledge of God: except that needed for our spiritual edification behind in heaven. Sex does not manifest the trinity properly, when it does not possibly spawn a child, as the Father and Son spawn the Holy Spirit. When the parents want to prevent a child, except in the natural methods advised by church and bible: Natural Family Planning that is: then they are saying that the Father and Son: that they don't love the Holy Spirit, so as to continually support it, for He too is eternal.

When the action does not manifest selflessness in a sense, and a bond for life, and does not strengthen or maintain a unity, then it indeed is evil. This is why Catholics are not supposed to French (for pleasure seeking) kiss even: before marriage. Seeking sexual pleasure apart from unity and openness to offspring: is not what God intended to give us. His joy is natural, and he is happy for his love: so happy, that even such pleasure which I have never myself had just yet (Not married): does not encapsulate his joy. Now, he wanted us to enjoy manifesting him: let us not exclude the manifestation and just steal the joy from God.

Likewise: all sin is desires out of the natural proportion, or misrepresentations of our desires: in Sexuality: we want love: to mimic the Trinity; and in every action: we have natural desires: when we sin, we are actually thinking that this or that action is our desire: when in fact it is but one possible way to maybe fulfill it: and if it is wrong, it breaks the perfect link of goodness between right desire, which all men have deep down, and right action, which is how we should act. Now, whenever one endorses lust, or unjust hatred, or pride, or jealousy, or acaidia, or sloth: all of which I mean in the theological terms: they again do as Adam and Eve: and acknowledge the inferior over the absolute, and beautifully proportioned. In fact, when endorsing these sins: we are endorsing desires we don't have: and so: we are saying: this is my desire, when it is not: and that is lying, and endorsing the opposite of Reality, of God: illusion.

Now, with Christmas, as with lust, when people say it is too commercial: they do not mean there is too much commerce, but that something else has not risen in right portions with the exchange of value: and so: when something is evil: it is incomplete: as exchanging money is incomplete without gift of self, when on this day we just celebrated.

True Freedom, A perspective, or a true reality?

(Journey in a Broken World)

Article by Marc Aupiais

I am walking, then running. The sound, white noise, it makes it to my ears. My legs are tired now, with energy leaving slowly. I run and walk on a beach, yet my freedom is disrupted: the beach smells, and ahead of me, there are blankets, and bits of persons' possessions. The beach, it: smells horrid, the water smells worse, ruin horror: it affects me as ugly: because ugly is our evolutionarry instinct by which we see that which is bad for one. There is decay, following a largely unnoticed tragedy. The beach I am on is private, for this reason it is cleaner. Clothes, and seaweed; are being burnt, all this after minor floods, a long way in the distance. Somehow, my experience had been affected by their tragedy. I would not swim on that trip. The sea was too dirty. The beach, had too many ugly things on it.

Freedom, and death have allot in common: both are utterly governed by rules. Both, when desired: are actually desires for peace and life.

Your mind may not comprehend it at first, but then, the reality hits one. There is no lasting peace 'cept that governed in justice. Evil, according to John Paul II, is governed only by the time it has to rule. Time indeed, where there is decay: turns it into every fatal flaw.

And so, on the death of Rome, Pagan "prophets" were angry, yet what could have justified the Christians: the Emperor, and the men who conquered her: except: if Rome, had not in fact existed for centuries. City of God: or City of Man, indeed: Rome, according to Augustine, had ceased to be years before the Christian kings took hold of her.

Freedom, it is odd, is it not: no nation desires anarchy, so freedom is not libertism. To be free, is it not to be at peace...? Once, I evilly desired to kill myself, each night, the temptation emerged. I had lost my faith in Mother church, perhaps In this, I had had no faith. I was dead indeed, gone beyond all, though still speaking with God in prayer, or with something, and I wanted not death, but: imagines: a darkness of peace. I have always loved the dark, yet for years it was nothing but horrid images. I wanted peace, not death: such is a truth, yet I could not have a fake peace, or fake anything: I needed an absolute peace, the kind which in fact is what we desire, when we say we want freedom. For our freedom, we submit to rational rules of men, for freedom, we create nations and laws, and states, and armies.

America, that complex, even negatively affecting nation, her foundation was "Freedom", yet immediately, she erected a government, and immediately, she began locking up her apponents to her "freedom". Her basis is a constitution, a group of changing laws.

Law, is the basis of freedom, and laws can steal right freedom. In permitting contraception, governments have created conditions which increased crime, and abortion. In allowing divorce: nations which allowed this evil: created a problem of millions of domestic dispute murders.

When laws and "freedoms" are not for the good of all, they cause every person to lose some or much freedom. Law, is what keeps a nation together, just laws, that is. It is very hard to overthrow an administration, without firstly proving in this that it is "unjust", and that one will be more "just".

Now: true freedom, is it not also safe freedom, or is it this vulnerable girl, her face still muddy, rushing for some small hopes in life? You see, we often call the desire for freedom: the birth of it, but there are different levels of freedom. Our desire for freedom, is one of the most definitive human conditions. Is it some small hope in the mind, some hopefull love only in the head of the thinking man?

Freedom, has nothing to do with the ability to do anything: but rather: the ability to do what one truly desires to do. If however, one is believing that one desires one thing, but desires something else: then this false desire hurts our freedom, it oppresses it!

One who is truly free, in fact: is one who does all that they desire to do, and nothing that they do not desire. I am not free, if I follow a desire I do not truly have, or which wrongly misrepresents another desire, or if I act in a wrong manifestation of this. Do you hate a person who is truly free, indeed, to you: such a person is a maniac, he is dangerous to you, for surely: his freedom: it is a danger to you, for he gains it by your losss, surely? Or surely not?

True freedom, is everlasting freedom: such freedom cannot be taken, and is no danger to those around it. True freedom, I may explain later, even as temporary freedom is utterly beautiful, when just!

Now, we must define two freedoms: the freedom of a man physically, and the freedom of the man spiritually.

A man who is free physically, can do what he rationally desires to do, so far as he is not hurting another's just freedom. Freedom is the only basis for any law. Any law, which unjustly, and unneccessarially restricts freedom, is not truly a law, it is unjust. For this purpose, and human dignity, all law shoul be based on truth, and rational, sane thought as a basis to view truth with.

The Other freedom, that to do as one wills, in fact, this is not the core desire, one wants such, out of fear: one wants to secure their life, what Religion calls the soul: that which animates us.

Freedom: is a means by which we secure existence: and in fact, every emotion a human being has: at its core involves the mimickry of the concept of Reality, that in and on which all exists. In fact, any freedom, is at its core a desire to survive, and to survive in right proportion: to mimick reality.

Now, if the purpose of every desire: lies in survival, and the quality of this, in a mimickry of the concept of "reality", our containing mediator.Then: indeed: a desire which is termed evil: is in fact a misrepresenting manifestation of a deeper desire, and not the desire itself. It is evil, because it steals our freedom, and often does that to others. The dignity of a man is so often manifested in his aeviternal freedom, and what is also his freedom from desires not his own, or rather: his right to this. In such, one is free, simply if one is able to continue to live. The purpose of our desire, is to survive, and the free man can do as he desires: thereby: the purpose of freedom is life: within proportion and reason. I indeed, am most free: when I live forever.

And so, if a man uses his freedom, he restricts it. One who choses to run left, is not able to make the choice in that situation: to run another place than left; instead. The man who uses his freedom, with a choice to restrict it: indeed, his belief in freedom: has become that by which he chooses to make himself captive to something. Perhaps his desire to do something is not freedom, but captivity. That "freedom" is something we give up: as in marriage, or in becomming citizens, or part of a religion: in fact, either what one considers as freedom, is not absolute, and not the ultimate aim, or else, what a foolish man considers freedom, is what a wise man considers slavery. In fact, doing what is natural, such as marrying, or remianing celebate in persuit of truth, this is the freedom of the mind: self control, and as much a right as any external one.

I stated, that my "freedom" on the beach: was "impeached" apon by other peoples' tragedy. I was uncomfortible, revolted, and caught in physical desires of throwing up. Now, my desires to throw up are desires given me by my body to stay alive: but these are only manifestations of my desire for life and freedom, therefore I am not more free by throwing up. I am most free in rules, in sane morality. In Limits, which keep me alive, here I am free. None of these desires are of much joy, and yet: happiness is not my ultimate ideal: life is. For securing life, I must desire to see the world as it truly is, this life which seeks truth in its proportion always: this brings hope, and causes life and freedom onto, even past death: should we choose to manifest true truth.

Now, to insure freedom, we limit it: because by freedom alone is freedom curtailed. If I lose a freedom, something gains from this, or believes it gains. Yet, true freedom, is eternal freedom. What is gained for a moment, then lost forever, is not to be a lifelong goal. To be free, is to have the ability to cause one's life to be better, or last longer. This is the true freedom we really desire. We don't want the freedom to die: not deep down. We want peace, we want to have a comprehension, an understanding of things: yet all again lies in one word: life. Every desire, is a desire to enhance, and insure our own existence.

To me, all who are most selfless, these are most selfish. You see, selfiless actions: they profit the self. One gets such joy in aiding persons, but more than such: to be selfless: is to seem eternal, to appear powerful, free. In fact, such a person is able to fulfill their right free desire to aid other, or God, or Freedom itself; an ideal: a servent of God.

We love selfless people as they are free: and freedom is the ability to remain alive somehow, to mimick our mediator: existence. Freedom and life are connected. This is why we call the laws by which people are protected: "freedoms", even "rights".

In this, at once, we say that laws are designed to free men, and these laws, we say are places where we are "free", or where some would say we should be so: we have a "freedom" of sorts from them: a "Right": to do things.

So, also, freedom is gained by changing environments: can not a freedom, be gained: via changing how we manifest our desires? More than that, what is free, and what is right: are intricately connected in language. I man who does that which is not right, is not free, if we are to look at this from both sides: in that a freedom is called a right, and a right a freedom: or at least this is the idea our language endows on us.

Selfishness has bad connotations, yet: only because of how it is oft manifested in a manner which does not aid others. The best thing for a man is to do the moral thing: so it is that a selfless person is selfish in right proportion, and not evil in such.

Now, if my only true desire is for life, and eternal freedom, I am always truly free as long as I can live, and always ensure my free existence, it may not be eternal, yet as long as my life is guaranteed, I am alive: and what is life, but that which brings order, and synchronous, specific action to my being. My life, is in fact mimickry of that container of all things: reality. Any who seek freedom, must admit: it be free forever, we must live life, so as not to fall into captivity to that which takes our eternal; life, and our eternal freedom (By Eternal here, I mean aeviternal).

As long, thereby: as I mimick reality in right proportion, I am always given my desire for life: in fact, then: death is but another part of such: if I died a moral man: then I am free forever, if death is the end of what I am. If however, life continues; still: I am free, for I am moral. In the end, the only limit on our chosen freedom, is how we manifest our desire: so as to be free forever, in Christ, or else slaves forever to manifestations of desire which we may perceive wrongly as desire: such things which will take us, and make us slaves to cirumstance. Therefore, the moral, just, faith, divinely loving, and sane: who see the world from the Catholic truth: these are free forever.

end note:

Indeed, morals are that which keep us free from internal captivity, and ethics help us prevent freedom from being challenged beyond that: and needed for morals. The first step to spiritual peace, is God, yet the second lies in understanding somehow, our true desires, which do not need to manifest in only one way always. Indeed, to truly manifest our desires, we must obey God: for, like obeying nations for our freedom, we obey God's endlessness in rules: to be free, through faith and Christ. The Cross, indeed, like marriage: was a final, limiting choice: yet a choice which was the route of man's freedom from sin. Throuh obedience to the Tradition, magisterium, and ethics of the Divine Eathly Body of God: the Church, we are free.

Rosary Secrets- A look at the dedication of Our Lord and Saviour, Illustrious, and Divine- Jesus, our Lord, Son of Mary, child in Jerusalem

(Journey in a Broken World)

Article by Marc Aupiais

It is not a sad event when Jesus, our Christ, chooses to comply with his culture, and its rules, in fact- it is as glorious as the light shining on the girl's extravagant dresses, and the shadows falling over the boys suits, for their first Holy Communion.

It is no sad event when Jesus is circumcised, and no sad event when he becomes a man in Jewish culture, and is presented to God, as the firstborn child.

When Jesus fought his culture like a suffering crocodile in drought- he was not fighting its foundation, but something foreign to it. When he called the Pharisees, and Suddacees snakes- Vipers even, he was apposing something which was fighting for the very soul of his culture, and from within the very positions designed by men, even Holy men- to safeguard the essence of the powerful Jewish culture.

Anything bad within a culture, is surely not distinctive- sin is banal- and sin is everywhere- simply because it is the done thing does not mean we should set it high on clouds as culture. Culture is distinctive. Culture is that which separates the life and truth of one society from all others. A culture is something beautiful and to be preserved, it lies in nuance, it lies in language, it lies in the ways in which people manifest God. The parts of a culture, which are sinful- are just as evil as any disease, these must never be preserved, because in the end they will destroy utterly the cultures which harbor them.

In essence, every culture is now undergoing the fight between the True culture, and the Culture which does not exist, which fights to destroy true culture, though pretending to be something at all, except plain and simple depraved perversity.

As the war for truth is so powerfully fought in the valleys and mountains and waves, and dunes, and winds and hurricanes- of what is culture, let us always most strongly represent the Catholic Culture, the simple and kind righteousness, the devotion to the Rosary, to Prayer, Mass, Sacraments, Mary, Saints, and actions. Let us not Hide it- let us be firstly Catholic and then whatever culture we represent so far as this benefits God.

Attacks on the Catholic Idea of naming saints after where they come from also are evil, and sinful- in as much as they are illogical. Saints reflect not only their Catholicism, but it is in such a way as to affect their own culture, and often- will a saint manifest all or many of the best traits of their area of residence, while holding none of the bad. Our culture is our heritage, and must be respected, but the part of culture to be respected is the part which saves us from sin and sinful perversity.

Ultimately, every culture finds its hight and summit in respect of truth, in not supremacist hatred of foreigners, but rather in defending its own territory, which also allows respecting what is just in others cultures, even helping these cultures to refine their good over their evil, and sometimes allowing this within themselves, by letting some traits of cultures be lessened or made greater. This is why, ultimately, every culture is united in the Catholic Church, it is the hight and salvation of all. Only through Catholicism, do we find the universal culture which united and unites all people in Christ. It is through realization of what man is, by truly understanding what his source- God is, and how exactly man's status, and dignity was raised by Jesus' incarnation, that we truly are able to manifest the true elements- instilled by God, in every nation's culture.

As Catholics, we are universal, but we are also local- let us firstly be universal, and where necessary- local. Let us firstly gain great respect for our Catholic heritage, and history, and then also for what is good in our own cultures. By what is good in a culture, let us destroy what is bad in it, let us not falsely glorify the goodness in our national cultures, as the cultures of small groups often have flaws, and it is by highlighting both the strengths and the weaknesses of our culture, in a positively true portrait of events, that we are both prevented from despising utterly our people, and from supremacism.

Let us therefor anchor our cultures in their purpose for having good, and purpose, Christ, through the church, the pillar and foundation of truth (I Timothy chapter 3 verse 15)- which always, if its own integrity is preserved, should preserve what is good in culture, and destroy if not utterly what is evil. It is not Catholicism that needs changing by culture, but cultures, who need refining by the mysteries of faith. These cultures include Catholic cultures, these cultures include the cultures within the church in various countries. The culture of those who claim to be Catholic, so often is not Catholic at all. The true hope of every Catholic is Christ, and for this- we do not need to too much be part of our culture, rather- a culture is most richly enlivened, by righteous diversity- so far as its soul is to be preserved.

I am firstly Catholic, and then I am whatever else I am, for in Catholicism, my goodness is sucked from the depths of reality, and made to be- a masterpiece it ever will shine- of true beauty, of that which is made real through faith.

Culture also- can be utterly local, or result in organizations, or in heritage of ancestors, or so much else, yet culture which is good- is what is good and proportionate in culture. It is through truth that we conquer evil, through truth, love, respect, justice, and sometimes through the utter destruction of structure of evil, even to the extent that sometimes the church has sought to rid society of some persons, and seldom governments also do. Let us never respect what is evil in a culture, rather, let us learn from the good in cultures, and in Christ, by truly making them good, by calling out and obeying their counterparts from within the Faith.